Day 8

Posted on Jan 8, 2011 in Blog

Beautifully different.

Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.

You know, my first instinct on reading this prompt was to cringe.  Who are you, said a little inner voice, to assume that anything you do or are could possibly light people up?  Who are you to assume that you could be beautiful?  That’s impossibly arrogant thinking, Ms. Amanda.

Impossible.  Arrogant.  Isn’t it funny how the first words to come to mind, for me, are almost always negative?  How … I don’t even know what the word is.  And look — look at how I’m stalling, putting off the actual doing of the above-mentioned activity.  I’d rather go in circles around the question than deal with it any day.  (There’s an interesting mindful exercise, Amanda.  You could delve into thinking about your good qualities — these things that might just make you beautiful, inside and out — and be doing something that scares you all at the same time.)

Fine.  FINE, Reverb 10.  What is it about me that’s different?  What do I do that lights people up?

Well.  I’m not a half bad friend, I think.  I’m fiercely loyal.  I try very hard to keep in touch, even without Facebook.  (Gasp!  She doesn’t do Facebook?  Oh Lawd, say it isn’t so!)  I’m not a terrible writer.  (I might even be a good one.)  I have a pretty fine sense of humour.  I take decent (maybe even more than decent) photographs.  I can’t stop asking questions, or wondering why. I try really, REALLY hard to see the good in people all of the time.  This might sound like naivété — it’s not.  It’s actually a really difficult thing to do, to keep believing in the best of all possible worlds even when people and life in general disappoint you, time after time.

But I don’t know, folks, if any of the above makes me any different from the next person trying their best to make their way in the world.  Separately?  They’re just good qualities.  Together … they just make me me.  Maybe that’s enough to make me beautiful.  I don’t know.

In other news, blog friends, I am contemplating a move to WordPress.  Stay tuned … Waiting for an Echo might be making a migration before long.  The functionality of those tabs is quite seducing …



1 Comment

  1. Jeff
    January 10, 2011

    Well, Ms. Amanda, I suspect you're not really soliciting input but I'll offer some up anyhow… Of course, this all put forth without actually, you know… meeting you in person over a pint or lunch or Tim Horton's (Starbucks perhaps?) coffee or something. You seem to have more good qualities than you give yourself credit for. Since you raise the subject, I must tell you that I light up when I notice that there's another installation in "The life of Amanda". You are a wonderful writer, your observations are humorous, insightful and generally spot on. The qualities that make you, you are indeed enough to make you beautiful.

    Best for 2011~